Poetry

Writing, particularly poetry, has been an outlet for me since I began suffering from Depression at the age of 15. While my original intent was not to publish these writings, I decided to share my poetry with the world in the hopes that it may offer some solace to others who continue to suffer.

"and the lilies fall still" is a collection of poetry that I wrote during some of the darkest years of my Depression. Below, you will find a few of the pieces that I have written. If you would like to own the entire collection, please visit this link to order your copy. 

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ornamental chili lights

strung lucidly along

the balcony

cast an iridescent

scarlet glow

too weak to be noticed

from the street below

but strong enough

to cast shadows

in which we can

hide

away from the noise

and hum of the city

where we become

insignificant

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it surrounds you

swallows you whole

like the starless sky

it obstructs your airway

compresses your lungs

you are alone

it clashes

collides

with reason

shadows become living

they creep closer

hidden

by the blanket of darkness

and are upon you

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the days seem longer

in these empty rooms

the noise from outside

filters in

through the windows

reminding me

that people out there

beyond these walls

are happy

laughing

smiling

that people out there

beyond these walls

have hope

faith

goals

and that maybe

one day

I will too

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as I stare into

the yawning abyss

I feel the void

that it creates

there is nothing

to be said

there is nothing

to be heard

there is nothing

to be felt

there is nothing

to be expressed

the emptiness

is vast

all encompassing

like the arms

of a lover

who now passes by

in silence

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the hour hand flutters

lucidly in the night

the moon hangs low

low enough to touch

engorged with a starchy

yellow glow

the clock has fallen

silent

it no longer marks

the passing

the wasting

the decaying

of time

of life

of hopes

of dreams

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I know my place in the world

this is my world

my shooting stars

no one can change me

I can change no one

but I am disrupted

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the lilies dance

in the sunshine

swaying fluidly

languidly

in the breeze

the sun dips

behind a marshmallow

cloud

and the lilies fall still

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coasting through shades

of navy and lightest blue

the empty space around me

thickens

and clogs my lungs

there is a void

within me

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stars blanket the sky

giving light to darkness

then burn out and die

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